There was a time when I used to pour out all my frustrations and feelings on paper; it wasn’t exactly a diary, more like an outlet for a sense of alienation, of being misunderstood, which continues to be with me to this day. As the years passed, this grew into a highly subjective journal of my years on the road for AOL, and maybe they will contain the seeds of an excellent memoir — there are about nine spiral-bound notebooks full of notes, mostly written in ink!
What they didn’t do for me, or perhaps I didn’t use them for critically reviewing my life (though I did use them to self-flagellate from time to time!) is help me understand my life more deeply. Somehow I always remained blind to the ways of the world; throughout my life I have either lived in denial or just non-acceptance of the world around me, while trying to enjoy it to the fullest.
Thats why these past few months have been such an eye-opener; somehow the pieces of the jigsaw started falling into place; or maybe circumstances started knocking so loudly that I could no longer turn my head away. And I have to say it has not been pleasant at all. From the spiritual standpoint the world has always seemed illusory to me, but now I can appreciate its impermanence from experience. And at the level of vyavahara or material interaction its apparent that so many lies and myths have been rammed down our throats since birth — its a bunch of absolute lies! So what I have decided to do is write a series of posts on these very lies — sex, relationships, careers, money, governance — and hope that soon we are able to take inspiration from Guruji and live a more enlightened and enriched life, closer to our potential.
Wow!
Eagerly waiting.. 🙂
Love & JGD,
Aditya
Hi Vikram,
This is not the first time that thoughts that have been floating in mind, get crystalised through something / somebody related to art of living. And this blog did just that for me.
I look forward to your posts in the hunt for answers.
Greets to Tina
bhaiya I appreciate you….
for you are so honest…………rare are people like you !!
grt. waiting eagerly for those bunch of lies!!!
sunil
Vikram Bhaiyya…This is your very touchy post…Its like ..”mere dil ki bat aap likh rahe ho”…even your Dyslexic farmer post….looking forward to reading your further posts on the various subjects…its like reconditioning the mind..or rather deconditioning of mind….of all kinds of concepts about everything the mind makes..thanks for starting your post with vengeance…jgd….
wow bhaiya….i can totally empathize with u…i am eager to read your next post! 🙂
I would love to steal all your 9 spiral bound notebooks :D.’So what I have decided to do is write a series of posts on these very lies — sex, relationships, careers, money, governance’. Hope this would make you write often 😉
waiting eagerly to relish each post..
Perfectly resonate with you bhaiya.Sometimes i don’t even believe what i see, becoz anything can be faked these days;illusions as you put it.There is so much of acquired baseless knowledge in us that in the end we might come out as frustrated souls after going through unpleasant circumstances.But afterall,its experiences that teach us how to live life ahead..!
Write Write!! Please Write! Or how about a trip to Pan Asian 😉
hey eagerly waiting ….. pl write sooooon.. it ll help open my clogged pores too..ha ha
Hi Vikram, am going through your blog for the first time. This post shows your sensitive side. Keep going!
\\Appreciating impermanence from experience…wo interesting
Waiting …tick tick tick
Yes bhaiya,
J. Krishnamurti used to recommend, writing down random thoughts.
Also he used to say that we have made systems (or societies), the systems are not designed for growth of individuals, rather the individual’s growth is hampered for the sake of systems. (so many lies and myths have been rammed down our throats since birth)
The other thing that penetrate me was non-denial. (it has not been pleasant at all) and why should we always seek pleasant, life is everything and everything including the pain should be welcomed as an integral part of life which gives depth, strength and growth.
am soooooo loooking forward to your next posts.. after coming to AOL so many concepts have been broken and realised even in AOL foundation certain concepts get fed ( if u r not aware of it)..i cant exactly put them into words.. but i would so love to read u r posts..and may be mail to you..
Anita
Hi I was going through ur blog first time.
whatever u say in the post is really true today i do the same thing whatever frustation in my mind i write it down about anger or anything
Soon i will come out of it. thnks
waiting for ur next series of post
jai giridev
Hi Vikram,
I am not sure if you are still writing your thoughts via this blog, but anyhow, I am pretty eager to know just like others here, coz I think that most deep thinkers in the spiritual world often end up in dis state of great conflict with the real, or rather unreal outside world….lets talk, realities of life …virtually, i mean !!!